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30 Days of Truth: Day 2 & 3

Posted: September 28, 2010 in Life
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(playing slight catch up with this thing….blarg)

Something You Love About Yourself

I love my imagination.  It entertained me as a child and still does, as well as providing endless ideas for my stories and gaming.  I love the fact that I saw so much of the US growing up, thanks to family vacations to national forests and museums.  I love the fact that I find beauty in some of the weirdest places.  I also love that I am still highly entertained by card tricks, to such a degree that I turn into a child again.

Something You Have to Forgive Yourself For

I guess the biggest thing is my first relationship.  Looking back on it I can’t believe how stupid I was and that I didn’t notice the fact that it started out on a bad note.  He was abusive.  Not physically….I could easily over power him if it ever game to that(he was a string bean and I was taking martial arts classes).  No, the abuse was emotional and mental.  Its not as bad as it could have been.  He accused me of cheating on him multiple times which I never did.  He didn’t like it if I hung out with guys when he wasn’t around or if they weren’t his friends, though he could hang out with whom ever he pleased.  He had pressured me into sex and then demanded it when ever we saw each other alone, using the line “if you really love me…”

I have to forgive myself because I was young and this was my first relationship, but it wasn’t his.  I managed to break free and never looked back, and even though he hurt me in many ways I never said one horrible thing about him(even though I could have).  I wasn’t weak, just new to the whole experience and I’ve gone on to have better relationships.  If it wasn’t for those 3 years I don’t think I would be reaching for 6 wonderful years with Grendal.

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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

30 Days of Truth: Day 1

Posted: September 26, 2010 in Life
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I stumbled across this ’30 Days of Truth’ around here and decided, why the hell not?  I’ll probably learn something about myself and possibly grow.  It’ll also give me something to do when I need to calm down at the end of the day.  Here goes nothing:

1) Something You Hate About Yourself

There is more than ‘somethings’ then I care to admit.  I hate the fact that I have to prove myself to my friends in the gaming world, and its probably because I’m a girl.  I hate the fact that no matter what I do, I can’t seem to lose 10 pounds.  Sure I really don’t NEED to, but I think it could do me some good.  I hate the feeling of being the black sheep of my family and that it seems like my mother has nothing good or nice to say to me.  I hate that it seems like I’m going nowhere in life.

Above all else, I hate that I stop myself from telling people my religious beliefs because I’m afraid that THEY won’t accept it and that THEY will leave me.  I shouldn’t deny my faith for anyone.

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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Good Housewife

Posted: September 22, 2010 in Life

Even though I’m not a wife, Grendal says I’m being a good housewife.  XD  I take no offense to the statement, though I may have 10 years ago(hot damn, that made me feel old even though I’m not).  I’ve been cooking, cleaning, and doin’ laundry around the house the past few days even while juggling playing Halo: Reach!

Today was filled with more cooking!  The first day of autumn can’t go by without special foods.  While the main bit of dinner won’t be all that special, some seasoned fish, it’s the side dish and the dessert that I am most proud of!  I’ve made a nice blackberry pie that Grendal is excited to try out because he’s a fiend for blackberries.  It’s been years since I’ve baked a pie but here’s to hoping it turned out right.  The side dish is a squash and apple bake.  Again, something I’ve never tried but it’ll be a nice addition and it’ll hopefully get that autumn weather here quicker.

Other than that not much else has been going on.  Saturday night Grendal and I had dinner with my parents and younger sister as a birthday celebration(my sister turned 23 on Monday and I’m turning 26 on Friday).  It was nice and I didn’t leave feelin’ crabby.

But yeah…..nothin’ to report.  Now, if you don’t mind I’ll be off to check on my dinner.

lol.

There is nothing like starting a game when you know how it all ends. Being a big fan of the Halo universe, books included, I was thoroughly looking forward to playing the game. Not only because it was another Halo game but because it is the last one Bungie is doing in the foreseeable future. That and I really wanted to see how they pulled this game off. (more…)

Awesome

Posted: September 6, 2010 in Uncategorized

I had entered a small little contest, here on wordpress, that was held by a blogger by the name of Kiwidutch.  To put it plain and simple, she is very annoyed when people post in the forums “Read my blog!” and then don’t describe what their blog is about.  I can understand and thought it would be nice to enter her little contest.  The prize was a review of the blog on her own blog, which gets a lot hits it seems, and thus get some hits yourself.

I didn’t win, congrats to the guy who did, but I did get a little mini review. 😀  She said the following:

chibivega in her blog “One of the Guys, An account of a chick’s time as one of the guys and keeping up with life” is an insight into being a Gal in a very non-Girlie pass-time, Computer Gaming. She gets her kicks, punches and shots quite literally out of the computer or TV and will either kick your butt or talk tactics if you wish to take her on.

Kiwi’s Conclusions:  Naturally she has her gentle side too.. and like all good action hero’s and heroines, a sidekick too. Hers is called Grendal and we are all sure he’s a secret Viking in disguise. Being a Chick in the mostly male dominated genre of Gaming probably means that sometimes you have to muscle up to hold your own. Even to someone as Gaming illiterate as me, it’s instantly clear from her posts that she knows her stuff and probably has no problem blasting past much of the opposition. Her WordPress theme suits her blog perfectly. Ka-Bam! she’s good!

Made me happy to get that much!  She has other such reviews for the other participants and a nice big review for the winner, Ramblings From a Bass Fishing Enthusiast.

So yeah. Happy, happy.  In other news, I’m off to the doctor tomorrow to have my ears checked out.  Don’t need another ear infection.

My Own Bucket List

Posted: September 5, 2010 in Life
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(I know, I know; I am WAY behind on this but I never bothered with the movie and, well, thought it a little too blah at the time.  Stopping to think about it, though, it doesn’t seem too absurd.  I mean, I like lists and having something written down and staring me in the face would be great.  Besides, this means I can keep this stuff fresh in my mind and, hopefully, begin crossing things off!  This list is in no particular order, and forever updated.)

  1. Visit the Forbidden City
  2. See the Grand Canyon
  3. Return to the Crazy Horse Memorial
  4. Spend no less than 1 month in Japan
  5. Visit the Great Pyramids
  6. See Stonehenge
  7. See the Paris Opera House
  8. See the Notre Dame de Paris
  9. Go through the Louvre
  10. While in the Louvre, find the statue entitled ‘Winged Victory of Samothrace
  11. Witness the Northern Lights
  12. Be a published author
  13. Make an offering to Pele
  14. Visit Salem, Mass.
  15. Visit the French Quarters in New Orleans
  16. Bathe in a stream, no matter how cold the water is
  17. Spend 30 minutes in a Sensory Deprivation Tank
  18. Watch a meteor shower
  19. Stargaze, far from city lights
  20. Visit Delphi
  21. Spend time at the Temple of Apollo(while visiting Delphi)
  22. Return to the redwood forest
  23. Try surfing in Hawai’i
  24. Once more be the proud owner of a Boxer(I love them dogs!)
  25. Build a snowman
  26. Make a snow angle
  27. Have a snow ball fight
  28. Carve a pumpkin and set up for Halloween
  29. Go to Bristol RenFair in my Merrick costume
  30. Learn Japanese
  31. Learn the basics of the Hawai’ian language
  32. Watch a sunset on a beach in Hawai’i
  33. Treat Grendal to REAL shaved ice in Kona, Hawai’i
  34. Be in the audience at the Merry Monarch Festivale
  35. Knit a hat(I have a pattern for one that I soooo want to do)
  36. ?

It seems there is a 50/50 chance that I’ll either be ahead of the game, or way behind it but it seems like I’m behind it more often then not.  Last week, while I got in the last bit of TV I could, I was watching Adult Swim(shush, guilty pleasure that is no longer there) and they made a comment about the music they were playing in the background.  It was something about a Justin Bieber song being slowed down 800% or something.  I didn’t pay much attention to it because, well, I didn’t really pay much attention to the stuff they flashed across the screen anyway.

Well I was looking around i09.com and came across a title of an article: Classic Science Fiction Theme Tunes Sound Even Spacier Slowed Down.  My love of classic SciFi and odd sound music compelled me to take a little look-see at what the article was about.  Come to my surprise it made mention to the Justin Bieber song before showing a collection of SciFi songs.  I was honestly surprised and enjoyed the SciFi tunes as well as the Bieber song(slowed down, mind you).  So what do I do?  I follow the links, download the program, and start messing around with the tons of music that I’ve collected over the years. 🙂  Let me tell you this: The Beatles and the music from the Halo series is pretty interesting slowed down!

Just thought I would share that in-between cold recovery and picking out my next tune. 😉